Happy Halloween.
Funny how it doesn't quite feel like Halloween.

This was the second weekend in a row I went to something Jewish. This weekend was the biannual...thing...not sure what it's purpose was but the synagogue band played at it so my family and all the other band families whent to Rhode Island. Good times. Me, Jo, Joe, Max, Ben, Emmett, Tim. Chilling in the hotel. Killing time till dinner, killing time till the boys helped set up the band stuff, killing time before the service.

"Ooooh, are you with the Jewish people?"
"...Yeah."
"Oh, okay then."

Ben: You are the most stereotype person I know. You vegetarian...lactose intolerant...homosexual...vegan...
Max: Vegetarian.
Ben: Vegetarian...
Max: Mexican Jew.
Ben: Yeah.

The place we went to for lunch today had a boca club sandwich on the menu. "A meatless burger with bacon, lettuce, and tomato."
Bacon?

Me: Yeah, yeah, I have question about the boca burger. Why does it come with bacon?

I got to take pictures of the band with my dad's new digital camera thing. 67 pictures. Good thing it was a digital.

After the band played at the service this morning, me and Max sold CD's. We had no cash box, no change, no way of recording sales or anything. We stuffed 20 dollar bills in our pockets, tried to get people to give exact change, hunted for singles when they didn't. We sold a lot of CD's though. More than Josh and I ever did Sunday mornings.



AZ Update: First appointment for showing the house is a week from tomorrow.



"Hold on
Feeling like I'm heading for a
Breakdown
I don't know why"

You know how cats can tell when someone doesn't like them and they go and hang around that person, just to be evil?
I'm like a cat.
I can tell when people don't like getting their pictures taken, and I go and take a bunch of pictures of them.
Just to be evil.

"Halloween Day" at school today. I dressed up like a pirate. 5th period, I gained a sword by telling Arya, "But I'm a PIRATE! I need a sword!" and taking hers. 6th period, I gained a very pirately black eye. Mrs. Copley does kickass black eyes.
Videography...sword fights, monster dating, naughty nurse, nipple rubbing, balls of steel. I got to be the camera person. : D

Andrew was a Backstreet Boy. *shudder* He was stabbed for this several times with the pirate sword. Eddie was Jesus. Kristine was this weird freaky angel-devil thing. Meggy was DOROTHY. She was wicked cute with the jumper and pigtails and everything. James was a puzzle. He and this other kid dressed all in black, with trenchcoats, and painted their faces in a black and white puzzle thing.

There was a disturbing amount of whores in school today. Seriously. People dress up as whores/pimps for Halloween now.

Alyssa: So how old is your daughter?
Mr. Furlong: She's nine-and-a-half, and it will be a cold day in hell before I let her go to school dressed as a whore.

After school...stabbing/slashing/killing people with my pirate sword, rolling down hills, pillow pile (as opposed to pillow chain), eating cake.


Josh: You're my hero, James is my almost hero, and the pink frilly nightcap of DEATH is my almost almost hero.

Josh: 10 bucks says you're gonna forget.
Me: Remind me.
Josh: 10 bucks says the tooth fairy won't let me.
Me: 20 bucks says the tooth beaver will make you.
Josh: 30 bucks says I did the tooth beaver's mom once when I was drunk.
Me: You win.

Today was a happy day.

SCOTTIE'S BACK!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Scottie was in school today! It was really funny because I saw her with Kristine and Andrew and Devon in the hallway, and it didn't click in my mind at first, because I'm just so used to seeing her with them, and then I was like "...AH! SCOTTIE!" And then I went and screamed and hugged her and then Andrew made me let Devon hug her.

So now she's allowed to come to school, but she has to be at the hospital 1:30-6:30...but we can see her now! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

*happy dance*

She was so...happy today. She kept smiling and laughing. Which made me smile and laugh. : D

Still awaiting the day when Art can return to school...it will probably be a little longer in coming.



All day
Staring at the ceiling making
Friends with shadows on my wall
All night
I'm hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good
For something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
I don't know why

Confirmation tonight.
I love confirmation. It's always so fun. It makes it easier to not think about the crappy stuff.

Mr. Wallins: ...And you will be adults soon...
Leigh (muttering): I want babies! I'm so excited.
Shainess (muttering): I just want to have sex. Forget babies...



I want to take you far
From the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free
From the tethers of this scene
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change
We'll give ourselves new names
Identities erased
The sun will heat the ground
Under our bare feet
In this brand new colony

Yesterday after school was weird.
Art was there...not very smart, since he's been suspended. But he was there, and he and Justin had this "honor fight". I found out later that the deal was, if Justin won, Art couldn't kill himself. Art won. I didn't really understand most of what was going on, but I was told that within the week, Art was going to either kill himself or check into the hospital. Since he had won the fight...I'm sure I wasn't the only one who was freaked out. When he left we all hugged him and told him not to do anything stupid. When I gave him a hug and said "see you later", I couldn't help thinking, is this the last time I'm going to see him?

Found out this morning that Kyle called Art's sister last night. Art's in the hospital now. Thankfully a different one than Scottie...she doesn't need that right now.

Good times this weekend.
Big crazy youth group jew thing in Mass. Saturday-today. I have never seen so many Jews in one place. It was freaky. Tons of fun though. Fun like a barrel of monkeys. JEWISH monkeys.
I made new Jew friends.
What happened was, me and Josh and Shainess (other Josh) and Hannah and Sarah (not me) and Andy all met at the synagogue at 1:30. Drove up to Framingham to Temple Beth Am, met our host families, went to our host families house along with anwhere from 1-6 other kids. Stayed there about an hour and a half. There were 7 girls at the house I went to, including me and the host kid. 3 of them were evil whores. The others were cool. I think the evil whores made an attempt to be nice and talk to us on Sunday morning, but...they irritated us.
We went back to Beth Am around 6, ate ("ate") dinner (yum slimy deli sandwiches), had this little Jew sing-a-long thing (freaked us out for a second, we were like..."THEY TOLD US THIS WOULD BE A REGULAR DANCE!"), had a Havdalah service, and then the actual dance began. Just like a school...scary people humping each other to the beat of rap music.
Hannah and I hung out with two new Jew friends we made, Katie and Eric. (JEW CIRCLES!) Katie was insanely crazy cool, Eric was really nice, he was flirting with all of us but then he and Hannah walked off at one point. Which was kinday sketchy, since he's 18, she's 14...Josh and Andy had a lot of fun harassing them.

Shainess tried to pick up some chicks. I didn't actually hear this conversation, I was just told about it on the car ride home:

Shainess: Okay, see this cup? By the time I throw it out, I will have talked to a girl.
Josh: What are you, ten?
Shainess: I might as well be. *walks away*
Shainess: *throws away cup*
Shainess: *looks around*
Shainess: *walks opposite direction from Josh*
Josh: JOSH! JOSH! YOU DIDN'T TALK TO ANYONE!
Shainess: ...Hi Sarah.
Josh: SARAH DOESN'T COUNT!
Me: ...?

Corey: So Josh, I saw you were hanging out with that girl all night.
Shainess: Yeah, she's really nice.
Corey: What's her name?
Shainess: Jamie.
Corey: What's her last name?
Shainess: Umm...
Corey: You were with her all night and you DON'T KNOW HER LAST NAME?
Josh: *asks Jamie her last name*
Josh: I KNOW HER LAST NAME! HAH!


Went back to host family houses, we ate latkes and chocolate covered oreos and fell asleep around 1:30.


Other bits of hilarity shall come later, as I remember them. I've got pictures. : D


Got home around one this afternoon, woke up around 6:30. Tired...

Well you knew this would come
And you've left me alone
And you're lost and you're gone
Don't take it so seriously
Go on and get going
I'm fine on my own
We got you this far
Finally got if figured out

I actually wore a skirt today. The same one that I wore picture day but then changed out of before homeroom. But I wore it all day today...granted, I had a pair of capris on under it, but still.

Kyle: That's a cute skirt.
Me: Thanks.
Kyle: That is a really really cute skirt.
Me: ...
Kyle: I love skirts.
Me: You'd wear one if you could, hmm?
Kyle: I actually did once.

During horticulture, James told me about the outfit he's going to sew himself for prom. He's going to wear a dress. Black, with chains, of course. And fishnet. Can't forget the fishnet. He said he's not sure if they'd even let him into the prom.
Hahaha...James in a dress...oh man.

Oh, forgot to mention the other day, I am now allowed to call Josh "Joshy-poo". The only other person to have that honor is Nick. I feel so special.


There has to be a change, I'm sure
Today was just a day fading into another
And that can't be what a life is for

This is the post that I was going to write about yesterday but I was tired:

Taco: It's funny, because everyone here is so depressed because they're not with someone, and yet they don't want to get with each other.

Trying to get Scottie to try the iced coffee...
Taco: TRY SOME! EVERYBODY'S DOING IT!
Scottie: No!
Taco: IT'S LIKE AN ORGASM! IN A CUP! THAT YOU CAN HAVE THROUGH A STRAW!
Kyle: I have found the new Dunkin' Donuts commercial!

James was buzzed on caffiene this morning. It was pretty funny. 2nd period...in the greenhouse, pulling dead leaves of the ponsettias, I found one that was shaped like a cone. He said it looked like an ant's hat. So I gave it to him to put on his thumb.

James: Mrs. K! Mrs. K! Look! It's an ant hat! Like from the movie Antz! Do you remember the ant's name?
Mrs. Kovacs: What?
James: From the movie! What's the ant's name? He needs a name. *indicates thumb* Do you remember what that ant's name was? From the movie?
Mrs. Kovacs: You are losing your mind, and it's actually very cute.

Dancing in the greenhouse, bouncing while talking, talking rather quickly (dare I say babbling?) about winning a gymnastics tournament after 5 shots of expresso...this is James.



And then confirmation.

Josh: Oh, I know diddly. I know all there is to know about diddly.

Dave: AH! There's two Joshes!
Me: No, see, he's Josh *points to Josh* and he's Shainy Baby *points to Shainess*.
Dave: I'm not calling him Shainy Baby!


Not much to post for today...(thursday)...there was Key Club. Lots and lots of hilarity there, but, of course, I don't remember any quotes.

There are times that I amaze myself.





"Close your eyes
Imagine all you ever dreamed"

Hmm...rather uneventful day today.
My videography project is shot to hell for the moment cuz I saved it to the wrong place. Thankfully I don't have to refilm or anything...but everything that I've spent the last 5 or 6 class periods working on on the computer has to be redone. "yay". Tragic thing is, my parents think I'm still to weak and sick to stay after school (yet I can still go to school in the first place) so I don't know when I'll be able to fix this...gaaaah...

Made a cake this afternoon for my mom's birthday. Yay for box mixes...(didn't think I'd have time to make it from scratch)...I did make the decoration frosting tho. It is green. : D



I don't believe in anything
But I believe in you
I never trusted anyone
But somehow I trust you
And if I fall away
Someday you might find me

Visited Shreya at the library today. : D It made me smile.
She had me read "Don't Let the Pigeon Drive the Bus". I tell you...that book is genius. I LOVE it. Yay Mo Willems.


A bit sad...Applefest was seriously a 5 minute walk away from the library. So before we left...
Me: Mom...can I just walk down to Applefest and just go for like an hour?
Mom: And then what? How will you get home?
Me: ...Can you pick me up?
Mom: No. It's too late, Applefest is almost over anyway.
Damnit. So...assuming that timing was the only issue here, I could have still gone this morning and been the pancake. I'm irritated. Very very very irritated. I wouldn't have been so damn irritated if this wasn't the last year I'm here for Applefest, but there you have it.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Blogsurfing is fun. All you do is click the little "next blog" button that's up in the corner *pointing* and it takes you to a completely random blog. And so on. A lot of the ones I've gone to are in different languages, every now and then I come across a neat one though. (that I can understand) I'm discovering fun little accesories, such as the cost of war counter and my blogger's pet.
I love my pet. His name is Tibbles, Catlord of Freaks. Everyone say hi to Tibbles! *hi Tibbles*
If you click on him, he talks to you.



"Restless tonight cause I wasted the light"

So yeah, just about everyone except me went to Applefest today.
Good times. *cough*
Mm...I actually felt pretty good this morning. I was like..."hey, maybe, just maybe, if I feel fine all day today, mom might change her mind and let me go for the hour tomorrow and I can still be the pancake..."
But NOOOO. I had to get all tired at 2:30 and RUIN IT ALL. Not that I actually thought I'd be able to go anyway...but still. This year's the last year I'm here for Applefest. Last year to be the pancake. Last year to laugh at the insanity of this town. I've been looking foward to this.

Shainess: you'll figure it out, just take it easy. you have my blessing lol
Me: thanks, shainy baby
Shainess: I'm your pimp, no problem!


Josh: and remember, no ice cream until after you're married.

Yeah...went to the doctor today, still don't know quite what's wrong with me, but I can't go anywhere except school until either I get better, or someone figures out what's going on. Yes, this means I can't go to applefest. Not even for the one hour on Sunday to be the pancake. Crap. This is getting stupid now.

So yeah...I need someone to take my place as the pancake, this Sunday, 11-12. If you can do that for me, please call me asap. If you're in key club you'll get an hour for it, but I don't think you have to be in key club...not if they really need someone anyway. It involves putting on a pancake suit and walking around applefest and telling people to go to the pancake breakfast.


...Taco wants to know if I have narcolepsy. No hallucinations yet.



"Round here we all look the same"

"Any day where you make someone else's life a little better is a day worth living."
-MR



Off to the doctor again tomorrow. Maybe I'll stay home from school and then I won't have to finish this essay. Not like I can think now anyway.

Ooooh and I finally met Freshman today. woo!

A summary:

Blog...screwed it up, tried to fix it, made it slightly better, made it worse, made it better, fixed it, tried to fix comments, screwed up blog, tried to fix it, fixed template, added background picture, have given up on comments for the time being. Just tell me if you posted one.

Joe-Bob...she tried to kill me. Hit me in the head with a door. I now have a massive bruise that did not exist after school when I told her I was fine.

After school...phone, was abandoned, Videography, Devon's lollipop, project, Sam and Andrew making out twice in background of video (they shall have a spot in the credits), pictures, visiting Art, crossing street in socks, running in socks, Art stripping.

Important notice: Sma (Sam) is now Scotty, Kristine is the new Sma.

Bus...nausea, annoying freshmen, Scotty blocking window, asked "what if it's green?".

Another important notice: Scotty makes a good footrest but she insists on rearranging your feet.

Walking home...passed small children on trampoline, one said "hello whoever you are", said "hello" back while resisting the urge to crush them. (very tired)

Home...tried to sleep, Joe making too much noise. Damn it.



"I met a new one and she looks just like you
She gives me everything that you didn't want to
And maybe, maybe I don't need saving after all"a


"You've been so wrong so long"

Yeah, screwed up my blog somehow, this is just to see if the posting still works...

My stomach is angry at me.
I told it to shut up, I think that just pissed it off more.
Alternating between wanting to eat and being nauseous today, now I'm just really tired, I'm going to bed once I call Tim and find out what I missed in math Thursday and Friday.

Gaaahh...I want to know what's WRONG with me, damn it!

I have missed going to Arizona, going to the Renaissance Fair, and there's a good chance I'll miss most of Applefest next weekend.

All my confidence was lost tonight
Confused and regretful I cracked
Swallowed it back
And left with no spine intact

This time I think it could be perfect
But you'd push it away

Kristine: this duck would prolly end up in taco's pants like all the others.


mktg case study #1: mktg perfume
TRIPLE YOUR PRICE. THIS GIVES CUSTOMERS THE IMPRESSION OF GREAT QUALITY. HELPS PROFITS, TOO.

mktg case study #3: mktg shampoo
PICK A RANDOM CHEMICAL IN YOUR PRODUCT AND HEAVILY PROMOTE ITS PRESENCE. WHEN YOUR CUSTOMERS SEE "NOW WITH BENZOETHYLHYDRATES!" THEY WILL ASSUME THAT THIS IS A GOOD THING.

mktg case study #6: mktg cigarettes
FOR A PRODUCT THAT KILLS ITS CUSTOMERS, THIS IS PRETTY EASY. FOR ONE THING, YOU ONLY NEED TO CONVINCE PEOPLE TO START BUYING. BUT THE BEST PART IS THAT YOU GET TO DEFEND THE ACT OF SELLING A PRODUCT THAT YOUR CUSTOMERS CAN'T STOP BUYING BY CLAIMING THAT THEY HAVE FREEDOM OF CHOICE. BEFORE EACH MARKETING CAMPAIGN, PRACTICE THE LINE: "IT IS NOT THE POLICY OF OUR COMPANY TO DICTATE THE LIFESTYLES OF OUR CUSTOMERS."

mktg case study #8: mktg groceries [2]
USE LARGE SPECIAL! TAGS ON GOODS WITHOUT REDUCING THEIR PRICE. PRACTICE THE LINE: "OUR COMPANY FEELS THAT THE WORD SPECIAL IN NOW WAY IMPLIES A CONNECTION WITH PRICE."

mktg case study #9: mktg lies
OCCASIONALLY, JUST OCCASIONALLY, YOUR COMPANY WILL BE CAUGHT IN A LIE. THIS IS NOT GOOD. IF POSSIBLE, IMMEDIATELY FIRE SOMEONE EXPENDABLE AND PUBLICLY APOLOGIZE. IF NOT, YOU MUST STICK TO THE LIE. PERCEPTION IS REALITY.

-Syrup

Hehehe...this book has all sorts of fun "mktg case study"'s randomly inserted into the story line. I'll give you more later.

Hahaha...wow, this kid is full of himself.
Strange.
I think we've got ourself a case of split personality.



Talking about Sebby...
Sam: that jerk!!!!!
Me: eat him.
Sam: I am not hungry though
Sam: why is that the only thing wrong with that?



"Imagine you are walking down a street.
Any street. It doesn't matter. You are happily strolling along, observing the birds in the sky, the trees lining the road, the litter on the sidewalk. You are very comfortable walking along this street, because it all makes sense. Everything is how it should be.
Then a trash can leans toward you and says, 'Nice day, isn't it?'"
-Syrup

Nick: Your camera's mean to me. It looked at me and it stole my soul.
Me: I'm sorry.
Nick: You stole my soul, bitch!
Me: I'll give it back in a few days.


This is my school attendance record for this week:
Monday-stayed home
Tuesday-went home early
Wednesday-went to school, fine all day, slept for 3 hours when I got home
Thursday-came to school late, went home early
Friday-stayed home


Holiday
Far away
To stay
On a holiday
Far away
Let's go today
In a heartbeat




"Must I be foolish because everyone else is?"

I GET TO BE THE PANCAKE!!!!!
AAAAAHHHH!!!!

I LOVE YOU SHREYA!!!!!

w00t for pancake suits at Applefest. Applefest Sunday, 11-12, look for me. I just hope I'm not still diseased. If I am...I shall go anyway. Can't miss this.

w00t for Shreya signing me up for this at the meeting tonight...I could not attend...so she signed me up for it...and I love her...

w00t for people cancelling. : D

sleep now = no sleep later = tired all day = not cool

thank god for libraries.

Mmm...blood test results...turns out I don't have mono or joshitis or anything like that. In fact, my blood apparently couldn't be more normal. This leaves the question of...what the hell is wrong with me then?
Not going to school tomorrow...doctor says I should do nothing for a few days and see what happens.
My dad went to Arizona for a few days, I would have gone with him if not for this insanity.

Dad: Please be awake by the time I get home.



"In the twilight I saw fireflies
Please remind me when I wake up
I don't want to think that I was dreaming"

Hahaha...slut sweater...

Shreya: Yeah, I was all happy to see you and then I saw what you were wearing and I was like...OH MY GOD. You must be FREEZING.


Amazing, how you can get three Saturday detentions for trying to help a friend and then telling the truth about it. If I had a sticker making machine I would come to school with a bunch of "FREE DEVON" stickers and pass them out to everyone.


Wow, tired. Came home around 4:30, went upstairs, fell asleep. Mom woke me up around 7, or else I'd probably still be asleep now. Going to bed again soon...
But first I shall make SOMETHING that says "FREE DEVON".

Kyle: ...You want me to safety-pin your ass?



"I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
I ain't never coming back"

Today has been a day of tired. I stayed home from school (yay).
Went to the doctor...turns out I probably don't have mono, but I got a blood test, results get back on Wednesday.
Went to school to grab some books from my locker, Kristine said that Taco thought Kristine was me. (...how...?)
Slept for 3.5 hours after lunch...still tired.

Doctor: Questionable mono? Wow, haven't had one of those in like, a day and a half.


How stupid is it?
I can't talk about it
I gotta sing about it
And make a record of my heart
How stupid is it?
Won't you gimme a minute
Just come up to me
And say hello to my heart
How stupid is it?
For all I know you want me too
And maybe you just don't know what to do
Or maybe you're scared to say
"I'm falling for you"

...and the wheely divider thing that separates the social hall from the sanctuary shall henceforth be known as "THE TAN MONSTER"...

Yeah Youth Group.
First event tonight...movie night. Great times.
Volleyball with an inflatable beach ball and a line of shoes.

All: *various shouts of "IT HIT THE SHOE!"
Corey: ...Hey, stop and stand aside for a moment, and think about this. You're having a serious discussion about what happens when it hits the shoe.

Penalties if the ball hit one of the lights, or went in the sanctuary. Josh kept hitting lights, Dave kept sending the ball into the sanctuary, nothing really happens. Volleyball: no rules. Kicking, punching, randomly running across the line of shoes, hitting after one or two or three bounces. It was great.
We played boys vs. girls...I am pleased to say that Shainess has gotten even more in touch with his feminine side since last year, and he was an honorary girl, or we just called him "shemale". This kid takes his maxim of "sensitive but manly" to the extreme. Go Shainess.

Going to the doctor at some point tomorrow...won't be in school, at least not in the morning, probably not in the afternoon either. Stupid mono/appendicitis/spleenotosis/joshitis.

My dad keeps asking "how's your spleen?" As if I'd know if it ruptured...

Shainess...SENSITIVE BUT MANLY!

It is 8:28...the fatigue is taking over...I am beginning to see things through a delightful haze. Oh...wait...that's just my contacts spazzing.

"A friend is someone who knows your song...and sings it when you forget."

Congratulations, Jo. Great job.


Josh: Hey, nice hair. You look like a smurf.


Yeah, Jo's Bat Mitzvah today. Went to the service, skipped the party afterwards because I was/am exhausted. Stupid...whatever it is that keeps making me tired. Hopefully I'll be going to the doctor on Monday to see if I have mono or appendicitis or spleenotosis or joshitis.
If I die, Josh has dibs on my pink socks and my stereo, so it's probably the last one.
If I have to run the mile again on Monday, I shall...not run. With any luck I'll get an excuse note thing from the nurse, or I'll get even luckier and leave school early to see the doctor, and then I'll get to miss Biology too.


You can trust me not to think
And not to sleep around
And if you don't expect to much from me
You might not be let down
'Cause all I really want is to be with you
Feeling like I matter too
If I hadn't blown the whole thing years ago
I might be here with you
Tomorrow we can drive around this town
And let the cops chase us around
The past is gone but something might be found to take its place
Hey Jealousy