hmm...gonna be the same argument all over again, isn't it?

I was absolutely estactic back in...October, I think it was, last year, when my parents told Joe and I that we're holding off the Arizona move until after I graduate. Yeah...well I'm going to be looking at colleges soon...maybe thinking about early applications for film school...I barely even know what I want to do with my life. Still don't want to leave New England though. When I looked at Brandeis with my aunt, and went into Cambridge, I fell in love with that area...and there's so many good schools around there...my dad keeps talking about schools in California, he keeps pushing UCLA and how it'd be so much fun for me and my mom to take a trip down there to visit cousins...look at some colleges. Somehow I doubt I'll be able to get them to take me on a tour of colleges around Cambridge...or other parts of New England...you know, just for the hell of it, since tonight my dad told me that for me to go to a college here, there'd have to be a compelling reason...like, say, getting a full scholarship. But it doesn't seem like they're going to even let me apply to schools that aren't on the fucking other side of the country from here. I grew up in New England. I still don't want to leave. Does this mean anything to them? It's the same thing all over again.
Damn it...it's my future, isn't it?