I know it is already five days into this year, but here are some reflections on the new year and the old one.


On the Downside, 2004 Was a Year Where I...


Endured my first heartbreak.
Cried more than I ever have in my life.
Made bad judgement calls.
Altered my life in a way I'm not comfortable with.
Made mistakes.
Left innocence in the past.
Drank too much.
Was afraid.
Betrayed my morals.
Lost trust.
Was hypocritical.
Hurt others.
Hurt myself.
Lost myself.
Felt alone.
Lost friends.
Saw the effects of suicide.
Was angry.
Was self-concious.
Ate too much, sometimes too little.
Thought too much.
Didn't think enough.
Followed the crowd.
Gave in.


On a Brighter Note, 2004 Was a Year Where I...


Moved halfway across country. (why the hell would that be a GOOD thing?)
Gained amazing friends.
Was loved.
Loved.
Found someone who makes me smile.
Saw myself in the future.
Applied to colleges.
Went to my first concert.
Laughed uncontrollably.
Went to the beach.
Smiled.
Hugged.
Kissed.
Cuddled.
Felt at ease.
Grew as a person.


In 2005 I will...


Graduate.
Be accepted to college.
Learn from my mistakes.
Smile, laugh, love, hug, kiss, dream and learn.
Follow my own course.
Not drink to get drunk.
Or maybe, I just won't drink at all.
I won't listen to other people, either.
Find myself.
Lose weight.
Be happy.
Have hope.